grateful for 2018

Thank You for the Ups and Downs, 2018

2018 has been a year of extremes. I’ve had the hardest battles at one end and got answered prayers on the other. But for the mountaintops and setbacks, I’m grateful. I’m grateful because more than anything else, His grace abounds.

I’m grateful that every time I make stupid decisions, my Dad up there embraces me with discipline and unfathomable love. I’m grateful because I don’t deserve everything I have, yet God continuously opens His hands generously. I’m grateful that even if I’m a work in progress, I can still be used somewhere somehow. I’m grateful that I have Jesus because even if I’m just a speck in a world filled with trillions of people, I still exist because I have a purpose.

I’m grateful that I have strong, supportive loved ones who see the best and worst of me every day, yet choose to love and back me up nevertheless. I’m grateful for all the people I’ve encountered this year — those who left and those who’ve chosen to stay.

I’m grateful for new experiences, new cultures explored, and all the opportunities that came unexpectedly. I’m grateful for the humbling failures which reminded me that learning never stops, and that traversing life isn’t easy.

I’m grateful for this year, for every minute of it, because He has designed my days and made them all worthwhile.

Thank you, 2018. Praise God.

why I'm still here

There’s a Reason Why I’m Still Here

There were times when I would feel so little and incapable, when I would feel unable to pass trials, when I would feel alone, or when I would feel discouraged; and I would ask God to just take my life. I know these thoughts are irrational and impure. Yet my melancholic heart would cause me to cry so hard at times, and ask the Father to bring me to His kingdom so I won’t experience pain again –  no more hardships, no more drama – and so I can sing praises to Him forever, just as it’s written in Revelation 21:4. I still pray, though, for the negative thoughts to never come back.

Jesus hasn’t come back yet because of 2 Peter 3:8-9.

I remember one night when my impatience and unreasonable thoughts dominated again. I asked God: Lord, why can’t you just come back now and get me? I’m too weak for this world. A few days later, He answered my inquiry through my devotion. “With the Lord, a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. Instead, He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. (2 Peter 3:8-9)” These verses reminded me how selfish I can be. Life is not just about me after all. God wants to give others more time to come to repentance. He doesn’t want to settle with the number of Christians today. God wants multitudes of people – everyone, in fact – to receive the Lord Jesus Christ as their Savior and be sealed with the Holy Spirit.

And I’m still here; I’m still alive.

Although it’s hard to believe at times, the truth is there’s a reason why I’m still here. God still wants to refine and sanctify me; God still wants to use me in bringing people to repentance; God still wants to send me somewhere to serve His people; God still has a purpose for me. And he has a purpose for you as well.

If you are like me, if you’ve also asked God to just take your life for whatever reason, I pray that you and I would be reminded that God has a purpose for us, and that purpose is related with His own purpose. If your specific/personal task is yet to be revealed to you, please know that generally and ultimately, our purpose is to glorify Him in everything we do (1 Corinthians 10:31), and to obey Him and be purified by His blood (1 Peter 1:2). We are to love God above all, and to love our neighbors as ourselves. (Mark 12:30-31) Also, He wants to use us in bringing the gospel to the nations and in making disciples.

His ways are Higher than ours.

For now, even if it’s hard to trust the uncertainties, let us rest in the fact that His ways are always higher than our ways, and His plans are to prosper us and not to harm us. Therefore, no matter how cruel things could get, no matter how draining the circumstances are, let us rely on His promise that He will never leave us nor forsake us (Deuteronomy 31:6). The Holy Spirit is with us in our battles. We can talk to Him and seek comfort. And I know it’s easier said than done, but please let us not be discouraged, and just continue fighting the good fight of faith. One day everything will make sense when we hear God say: “Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your Lord.” (Matthew 25:21)

Let’s also pray for God to help us think only what is true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, commendable, excellent, and praiseworthy (Philippians 4:8), so we could get rid of negativity and suicidal thoughts. It’s possible in Jesus’ name! 🙂

I hope this has encouraged you in some way. May our good God comfort and remind you of His love and promises every day. 🙂


With you in Spirit,

Top 10 Things I’m Grateful For in 2017

Every end of the year, I try to look back and list down the things I’m grateful for just because I don’t want to take all the blessings I’ve received for granted. It also reminds me that those things happened not because of myself. The ultimate reason was God, His favor, and next to it were the contributions of the people around me, regardless if they’re big or small. For this year, I tried to list down as much as I can in my journal, and the following ten topped my list, in no particular order.

1. Life of My Loved Ones and Friends

My family, my loved ones, my VG-mates, church family, and my friends are my support system. Sometimes they know me more than I know myself. I thank the Lord every day for their lives because they’re my inspiration, and source of both encouragement and rebuke. I’m still a work in progress and it’s more fun to surpass this journey knowing that I have them just around the corner.

2. Travel Breakthroughs

I explored South Korea, Thailand, Macau, Cagayan de Oro, Iloilo, Bacolod, Puerto Galera, Bukidnon, Mt. Pamitinan, and Negros Occidental for the first time this year. I was also given the chance to revisit Hong Kong and Palawan. Aside from my own travel fund, some trips wouldn’t be complete without my mom, of course.

3. Scriptonym Writing Services

I know this sole proprietorship still has a long way to go, but I’m grateful because Scriptonym Writing Services has provided most for me this year. To my clients, just in case you’re reading this, thank you so much for trusting a 23-year-old girl. I’m looking forward to more years of business with you. May God bless your endeavors!

4. Bonding with the Indigenous People

For some reason, my heart beats for the indigenous people. I was ecstatic when Reach Manila conducted the medical and dental mission, and gift giving activities for the Aetas this year. Indeed, sharing the love of the Lord to other people either through service or sharing gives joy. What a privilege to see the simplicity and beauty of their culture! It was an experience I’ll treasure for a lifetime.

5. First Bylines in a Magazine

I’ve been a ghostwriter for quite some time now so seeing my bylines in a magazine was really a big deal for me. It was definitely a bucket list, kilig moment. I’ll forever be grateful to the creative director who trusted me with the Profiles magazine project. I can’t wait for more in 2018.

6. First Sponsored International Trip

Until now, I still can’t believe a travel agency really provided for my accommodation, van transfers and tours in Bangkok, Thailand. Thank you, BC Travel and Tours Corp! I can’t wait for my travels lined up with you in 2018! Thank you for trusting me again!

7. Mistakes and Lessons Learned

Mistakes and failures teach me most about life. This year, I’ve said things I probably shouldn’t have said; I’ve hurt a few people; I’ve abused myself; I’ve disappointed God. The biggest lessons I think I learned this year were: (1) to avoid being impulsive, (2) take care of your health, (3) be patient, (4) practice humility, (5) pray about anything, (6) wait on the Lord, and (7) to really look on the blessings rather than the sad plights. Of course, no one is good and perfect apart from God, but I try my best to pray about the things both other people and I don’t like about myself. I’m sorry to the people I’ve hurt in any way, whether I know it or not. Please help me pray to also overcome my weakest points.

8. New Friends

Shout out to Team Arayat, #OnHigherGround roommates, churchmates, new friends from RRD, and the people I’ve spent memories with this year. As cheesy as it sounds, I’d like to thank you guys for simply coming into my life.

9. Redirection and Revelations

Receiving a personal word from God is incomparable. It helps you grow in faith and it gives you direction, knowing that God is leading you somewhere and He wants you to do specific things. I always experience awe whenever God tells or reveals something to me through the Bible, the Holy Spirit, and other people. I mean, who am I to even receive a word from the One who created this world? This year, I have received several personal revelations again. They required sacrifice, obedience, audacious faith, and above all, trust in the Lord. They weren’t easy and until now, I still plead God would give me the capacity to obey Him when He tells me something without negotiations and reservations.

10. Exciting Opportunities in 2018

During the last quarter of 2017, God has opened doors and has given me new opportunities to continuously grow as a person, a daughter, a sister, a writer, and a young entrepreneur this coming 2018. I can’t wait to reveal them soon! I worry about things sometimes, and it’s comforting to know that everything is falling into place because Someone up there is controlling everything.


How about you? Have you listed the things you’re grateful for this 2018? Go ahead and thank our Lord for them because He’s the ultimate source of those blessings. Have a blessed and wonderful new year ahead!

What Made Me Blog


I’m Patricia Hisugan, a 24-year-old writer, traveler, and entrepreneur. I  founded Scriptonym, a provider of outsourced writing and proofreading services based in the Philippines.

I’ve started this blog last 2015, but I deleted my previous entries probably because I thought it would’t work. I had the wrong motives back then. I badly wanted to make a profession out of blogging to the point that I became so depressed that nothing seemed to work.

Now, I’m blogging simply because I love to write; I want to document my travels, share my thoughts and honor God through writing. After all, blogging doesn’t have to be filled with pressure. It’s about expressing oneself and sharing your learnings and experiences to also help, inspire, and bless others.

Expect more posts coming. God bless! <3